I’ve been praying for certain things all my life: change this circumstance, Lord; this person; change me, Lord. I pray the same things over and over, and mostly, nothing changes. It puzzles me.
However, this morning, I read in Jesus Calling that God suggests we stop asking Him to do what we want, and instead look for what He’s already doing – and align ourselves with that. Hmmm.
I thought about that a long time. It took me a while to find things He’s doing in the circumstances I’m praying about – because as I just wrote, I really don’t see Him at work. At least, He’s not producing the results I want to see. So, what is He doing, if he’s not doing what I’d like Him to do?
What I realized after a while is that my prayers are pretty much about me. What would make my life easier, my stress lower, my life less aggravating. I do want good things for my loved ones, so my prayers are about wanting peace for people in my life as well. I believe God wants that for all of us.
But, I mainly just want relief from my own worries and fears. If people would just trust God and live accordingly, I’d have more peace in my own life. If God would just grab hold of people, and shake ’em up, I’d be happy, because they would see how much they are loved and how much He has planned for them. And they would want that for themselves. And life would be good.
For some reason, God doesn’t seem to operate that way. He has his own way of doing things, which seems pretty slow to me, because I’m an impatient human. I wonder where He is when people I love are making poor choices. What is He doing in that situation?
I believe God is always pursuing us, so, even in disappointing circumstances, I believe He is present – doing something.
But, only God knows what.
So after today’s reading in Jesus Calling, I’m going to start looking for what the Master is doing in the seemingly-nothing-is-happening messes I pray about. I’m determined to find something he’s tweaking, even if it’s “well, so-and-so didn’t get hit by a bus today.” I do believe He’s always orchestrating events, even though He doesn’t share what He’s up to with me.
I’m also going to try to be more aware of things He’s doing that have nothing to do with my prayers. I want to see Him work in any capacity, because He puts on the best show. When I’ve experienced a “God-thing,” my heart is warmed, I grin from ear to ear, and my faith expands. It reminds me that we have an active God who cares about us.
I cling to that golden promise like I squeezed our children when they were younger.